Could you meet me halfway?

Of all that I have broken, you have mended it anew. Before the time that it was spoken, you had seen it for the truth. In the way that it was woven, I can see the lesson in it.

The wandering a stray- to come to light.

I wrote this song last week, the prompt was “could you meet me halfway.”

I never know what kind of song is gonna come out of me each week. I rarely have an idea before I start of what I want to write about.. I just find the chords and start to play with a melody I find through a little nonsensical free styling and usually the lines start to take shape then it’s a game of filling in the blanks like madlibs.

This particular week was hard, couldn’t find the song.. I tried and tried and had multiple different songs started but none of them caught me.

It had been a hard few weeks for me.. a sort of burn out or seasonal depression, a mountain of work in front of me without the motivation to move it.

I moved to another spot on the farm, a place where I could hide, settle into my process and allow the song that wanted to come through me to reveal itself.

It started with honesty. Acknowledging the suffering of the season I’d been in. Allowing myself to speak to the hopelessness I was feeling.

And as I gave the heaviness a voice, I started to feel lighter. Energy that was stuck started moving and inevitably my faith started rising again.

Something in my character can’t help but find hope after struggle. I can’t help but seek the light after witnessing the dark for some time.

And so the first half of the song was the dark, the heavy, the struggle. Which naturally invited the second half of the song to bring its redemption.

I’m comfortable in my relationship with god. I’m comfortable in the mystery of it. I’m comfortable with my roots of being raised in the church and a Christian school. It’s just where I came from, it’s the language and framework I was given to process the complex existences of being a spiritual soul in a human body. I don’t subscribe to any dogma but I also don’t fight against them anymore.

So when I use imagery like being saved by grace, following the son, reaching his hand out and asking me to meet him halfway- though it feels vulnerable to share- it’s the truth in my heart and it brings me peace when I feel lost.

Anyways.. here’s the song that came through last week.

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Thanks for listening! ☝️👂🙏

Lyrics:

Hey now

What’s it gonna be

Straight down

Once I leave my feet

All my

Reasons stacking up

Can’t lie

Im too afraid to jump

It’s all that I’m after

It’s all that I’ve done

I’m sitting alone now

My hand on the gun

I’m tired waiting

For nothing to change

I’m sick of my senselessness

From numbing the pain

I’m stoic on the surface

But it’s killing me to hide

What’s the point in all the purpose

If it’s driven by my pride

I’m just an actor I’m a faker

And I’m really not that good

So if you see me you’ll see through me

And my hope is that would

Slow down

Stop and catch your breath

Touch ground

Not everything’s a mess

These days

I’m clinging more to faith

And I’m saved

But only by the grace

It’s all that I’m after

It’s all that I’ve done

I’m finding my way back

And follow the son

Reaching his hand out

Could you meet me half way

I opened my mouth to speak

But what could I say?

Of all that I have broken

You have mended it anew

Before the time that it was spoken

You had seen it for the truth

And in this way that it was woven

I can see lesson in it

The wandering a stray

To come to light

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(One of the biggest stick bugs I’ve seen, do you call them walking sticks? Or did my dad trick me when I was a kid?)

I made it back to the states, I came to Ohio to renew my drivers license and catch some home town healing before starting the summer tour with Satsang.

This is a first tour in at least a couple years that I’m genuinely looking forward to. It’s right on time for me to get a shift in pace, location, and company. I miss the boys and the routing is essentially through the most beautiful parts of the country. Through all the national parks of the north west.

If you are coming to any of the shows- please come say hi to me, if you’re interested in coming to any shows- drop a comment and I’ll get you all the dates and we can see if any line up.

See y’all next week!

xogb 🐝❤️🧙‍♂️