need a new system
I guess that i'm believing in the writing on the wall. People (are) saying that I need a new system. Got me thinking now that what if they're not wrong...
everything I'm working on well I do it half for you i'd say I do it all for you but half of its for me too well I'm working for us and I'm starting to trust that we don't need to figure it out but its easy to say and much harder to do I guess that I'm believing in the writing on the wall people saying that I need a new system got me thinking now that what if they're not wrong now that i'm in my head I can organize my thoughts I should make a plan and re-prioritize and if I made a list you're at the top of it and its clear for me to see that if we are good and both understood nothing else can shake us but the storm is gonna come I am telling you that I will never run you can count on me to bring the umbrella safe to say that you remain at number one a good friend told me that the work is never done we'll make a promise to remember to have fun I can remember the time where you opened up my mind you held up a mirror for me to see myself I was so embarrassed you said I was fine you reminded me that you were by my side and together we'll be so much better to meet the obstacles that are gonna come from the waves when they get rough we can make it to the morning rising sun this could be our new system
thanks for listening
xogb
there’s just something so cozy about sitting in a coffee shop by yourself with some strangers about. similar to an airport. I used to spend entire days at a coffee shop. (Not even talking about the formative years I spent working as a barista at Boston Stoker, a family owned coffee and tobacco shop that started in 1973).
showing up in the morning with every intention of being productive in some sort of business endeavor, and unequivocally swimming in creative ADHD and over caffeine-ification all day long, bouncing between ideas, books, conversations, and self soothing when the anxiety hits hard after the third cappuccino.
those days were always great for me. when working on a project, I have always needed time to let the chaos burn off and the flood of creative ideas spill over in order to eventually land in a sort of higher state where I finally accomplish what I came to do in a distilled 44 minute window. It may have taken less than an hour to complete my goal for the day, but I needed those three hours of nonsensical rambling to get there.
life is different now, and its way better, though I am still learning my new methods of productivity. let’s call it what it is.. creativity. these days when I am being “productive” I am talking about writing my weekly song, the weekly blog, promoting an upcoming retreat, and now that I think of it reading.. reading for me now would be filed in the productive task category. The time doesn’t really exist for it unless I really set aside intentional moments. and reading recharges my magic meters.
as a new dad and husband, my priorities are family- that’s what I set as number one and that’s how I like it. though that means things i used to always do for myself in the creative/productive realm are under a time crunch.
the truth is there is plenty of time in a day for everything I would like to do. I have much less time for myself- yet I actually accomplish way more now than when I was a wandering young single cat with nothing but time.
still I notice how much nonsense takes up my attention and energy. damn it our cell phones are such a blessing and a curse. i’m finally ready to admit… i am addicted to scrolling. what a rush of dopamine. I love finding memes to send to my buddies. I love the break from whatever else I would be thinking of or working on… but very quickly it comes with diminishing returns.. and I hate it. I feel stupid while scrolling, sometimes I catch my son watching me, can you imagine him thinking I am doing something important while i’m just filling my time and head with such dumb shit? it feels really un-healthy.
i’ve got some friends that use different apps and settings to help them limit their screen time and i’m ready to try em out.
is anyone else out there interested in joining me in a quest to free ourselves from scrolling addiction?
i’m currently on a little break from tour. I get to spend time with my family in Dayton, Ohio with Carolina and Benjo.
so far we’ve been able to get some really great quality time with benjo’s grandparents Papa Alan and Abue JoJo, and hang out with cousin Rinna (3yo)- which is officially amazing to watch. we had a cookout with some of our closest friends and their kids… 6 little girls between them, and two more couples with girls due at the end of may.. is that not wild? benjo is surrounded by girls! all of our friends have girls… which is great, but I mean… come on- we need some little bro’s for benjo to hang with too!
Carolina and I got to go on a real date just the two of us, dinner and drinks downtown. we went to sueno and tender mercy and had a great time. my wife is hilarious and sweet and down for anything just about anytime (except for ice cream last night), and when we have the time to just hang out and talk, the conversation flows without effort and I really feel united with her as a team moving through life, not to mention she’s hot af.
on Sunday we signed up for the earth day 5k trail run together with caro and my dad. Caro and Papa Alan ran it and Benjo and I walked it. I could see the eye of the tiger in carolina’s eyes as we lined up for the start- she took off like a jack rabbit and held the lead for the womens division from the first mile until the end! she won! first place female… so dope. my dad and i have never won any races in our lives! and caro comes out and dominates her very first. it was sick.. and i love it. i hope we start signing up for more and more trail runs and work our way up to some ultra distances.
just another week until i hit the road again with satsang to finish the tour.
Scott and I have officially opened registration for our upcoming purpose spark retreat in Colombia! July 7th-12th with an optional 2 night beach integration add on with us.
It’s one of those things where i’m not sure how to really share how magical this trip we are creating will be. I will certainly try to paint the picture for you. Look out for my upcoming publication about our adventure in the heart of the world.
Check out the details here!
Thanks for reading.
xogb 🐝❤️🧙♂️